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All the time: I feel fear.
It’s the single, primary guiding emotion in my life: fear.
I fear for my own life, like I’m dying, and any moment might be my last. It could be this breath, or the next, and then: BANG!, a blood vessel pops in the brain, like the neighbor across the street, and you drop dead in some strange hotel room in some strange city..
That could be me.
And, this fear is good, because it’s the God’s-honest truth: at any moment, any one of us: BANG! . . . dead and bloated.
This fear motivates me to live in this moment, to appreciate it, fully recognize as much of each moment as possible, rather than just letting it slide by, this moment and that one until a whole human life-span is expired.
I’m here, alive and breathing, sitting at this desk, typing on this keyboard, crafting these words, comfortable and warm, breakfast eaten, preparing to get into the shower before I head to work.
This moment is a good one.
Outside of this moment is bad stuff. Outside of this moment is fear. Outside of this moment is the unknown. Anything might happen. It could be a car crash. It could be public humiliation. It could be a fist fight. It could be a lightning storm. It could be anything and lots of it: bad.
